please help me iam in hell

Yah I know...I've never seen someone so stressed about having the urge to masturbate.

They say that 98% of men masturbate and the other 2% are filthy liars.

Shams Zaman wrote: Dear brother! Get married and you will be over with this problem. Marrige is the natural and Islamic cure to this problem. Even if you think one is not enough go for four, I am sure with 4 wives your problem will vanish even if it is anxiety or extra functioning of your sperm machine. Shams Zaman

This is not going to help him nor solve his problem. From the short mention of what he is goign thru this tells me its more of a problem than simple getting married perhaps to 4 to solve it.

Megatron, I agree with you but you can have too much of (a) hormone/s.

Agree with DavidC.

To the original poster, I suggest you go back to your doctor, get some help with your anxiety, you're getting a double dose here one; you are anxious becaue you feel what you do is too much and leads to worrying, two because you do not want to commit zina, which also leds to worrying.

If your doctor is not going to help you, then go to another reputable doctor.

Have you gone down the path of natural remedies, at least for your anxiety and tensions. You do really need to relax and relax that mind, if you go to a homeopath and being in germany I don't think you'll have a hard time finding a good one, they can help with many things according to your needs.

I like to go to natural therapies before going to prescribed medical drugs for anxiety, depression etc. It is better to say away from them it should be the utmost last resort.

And try to do other things, go swimming, running, to the gym, I believe you need to be active here and not be passive like reading. Get up and do something. This will also help to get tensions out of you, calm anxiety that you have.

First of all, don't worry too much over it. As DavidC says, your worry may have caused you to have anxiety as a psychological problem. Plus don't take such "pills" if your physician does not advise you to use such things. 

Masturbation may be haram, but much less dangerous and haram than fornication and you seem to have some kind of an excuse... I don't say you are allowed to do it. But you know, you shouldn't worry so much as to make you depressed and psychologically ill.

Marry as soon as you can, inshAllah, as another brother/sister advised.

Also, such scholars as the famous and mainstream Sheikh "Yusuf al-Qaradawi" says that in western and westernized countries young unmarried people (or just men?) can masturbate in order to reduce their sexual tension and protect themselves from fornication. But lewd pictures etc are of course haram in any case. 

I have certainly read that fatwa from the sheikh. If you search for the sheikh's name and masturbation on the internet, you may see it for yourself.

May Allah forgive our sins and make us capable of repenting and refraining from them.