Homosexual rep

Salamou 3alaykoum,

I am a 37 year old man, married for 6 years and father of a 2 years old girl. I have always had an attraction for men, I had informed my wife before our marriage, but I always hamdoullilah managed to fight this through prayer. During a trip for an internship of 6 months abroad, I yielded to this ignominy. My wife who was spying on my phone noticed it. She asks me to divorce, tells me that I became haram 3alayha, and offers to remarry a few months later if she sees that I really changed, so that our child does not grow up separated from his father. For my part, I love my wife and I regret more than anything in the world what happened. I am convinced that my current problem as a couple is a sign of divine chastisement. I am starting a depression. Being still abroad for this internship, I had to reluctantly confess everything to my sister and my mother, who met him to ask him to forgive me. I pray night and day, I will inchaellah fast 2 consecutive months or feed 60 poor, and do not know what to do to save my marriage. Can we do without divorce, knowing that my intention to change is real and definitive?

Edited by Amine37 - 12 December 2017 at 12:50pm