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aishag88
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Posted: 12 October 2005 at 11:43am |
"When i read both stories you sound like a different person with two different lifes..." Yes Sister, that is how I feel. One moment I am modest and calm, and the next I am angar and doing things I should not. Sisters, I don't think I should tell you all I have done... Has anyone every felt like this? Has anyone felt trapped? Like they trapped them selfs in something and don't know how to get out? They are confused and don't know what to do. I feel I need help, but everyone tells me the same thing, "Thats wrong, why are you doing this?! Its Haraam!" I know its haraam, and I am not inngoring what I am doing is wrong, I know it is. I want to please Allah, but i keep giving in to wrong things. Ya Allah, Would I be a hypocrite? I don't even know if i'm allowed to say that about myself...but I feel that I try to be good muslim, and at the same time i am being bad, doing bad things... Salaam Alikum |
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karimah
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Asalam Alaikum Aishag88 I am sorry if i offended you i did not mean to. And yes i do feel like you sometimes.
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herjihad
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Bismillah, Aisha, the devil wants to take control of our lives with guilt and depression as his tools. Try to work on one or two things at a time that you think you can change permanently that are important to you and important to being a Muslim girl. If some people can do everything, then Allah, SWT, bless them. I cannot and never have been able to. Maybe it's your age. I think when I was younger I thought I was supposed to do more. Well, I know that I am, but I know that Allah, SWT, is the Most Merciful. That means he is more merciful than anyone here or anywhere else who might want to condemn you or I. Keep trying. May Allah, SWT, be with you always. |
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Al-Hamdulillah (From a Married Muslimah) La Howla Wa La Quwata Illa BiLLah - There is no Effort or Power except with Allah's Will.
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ummziba
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Assalamu alaikum sister aisha, It isn't easy being 17 for anybody! Add to that your struggle with Islam and dealing with family and school, is it any wonder you are feeling as you are! Here are some things to try and remember:
Hope this helps a tiny bit! Peace, ummziba. |
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Sticks and stones may break my bones, but your words...they break my soul ~
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hakeema
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As-Salaam Alaikum Sisters, I like this forum website. I have been to other Islamic websites people are crazy and they argue too much. On here I feel a calm, cool, and collected energy on here. But I just want to add my two cents. All of us as muslims goes through this. When you make a decision to give your life totally to Allah, changes take place in your life. There are things you have to give up, so just take your time. Take one day at a time. Like Sister Ummziba said about being 17 or being a teenager wasn't easy for me also. High School was very depressing time for me, eventhough I wasn't muslim. You want to do what everyone else is doing. But as you learn you have to be who you are. You have to be your own person. Even if choose to be muslim or not, or wear hijab or not people are going to talk about you anyway. So be true to yourself. Hakeema |
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Dayem
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herjihad
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Bismillah, Dayem, that's very interesting! Tell us why life is easy for you as a 17-year old, please. (Do you live in India with your Muslim family or near a strong Muslim support system?) Sometimes I see a happily married couple and I think that somebody's got to be happy and peaceful in this world! |
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Al-Hamdulillah (From a Married Muslimah) La Howla Wa La Quwata Illa BiLLah - There is no Effort or Power except with Allah's Will.
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Dayem
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You mean to say (herjihad) that I explain why my life is easy-peasy?Well, how to explain it-Alhamdullilah, Allah (swt) wants it that way-maybe? I get up-go to school-come back-eat-study-and sleep,and pray in between.Nothing special, or big-deal, is there? Praises to Allah(swt), my family is very religious and co-operative and back me up whenevr there is row; some time my parents scold me yes, but mostly they love me. The place I live in is Jamia Nagar, new Delhi, and most of the people here r muslim, praises to God.Though every one is not 'so' religious, people here r a bit ignorant too; but alhamdulillah, during ramazan one can see the strong hold down here. I like the way it is(though it may sound dull). Regards,Dayem. |
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