How to be sure about conversion?

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   Hi,

Im a woman married to a muslim man. During the time we have been together i started liking islam reading about it and as time goes by my interest have grown. I stopped eating pork completely and am trying to think about my actions in the light of islam (respecting people, helping people out, etc.). Im also loving the look of the head covering and im enjoing wearing it when we visit my husbands family in his home country. I have also been reading an english translation of the quran (currently at surrah 47 and tying to finish all of it). Lately i have had a strong feeling that i want to convert to islam but im worried about many things. 

1. im afraid how muslims will perceive me. I feel like i should go to mosque but im really shy and the thought worries me if someone said anything to me. 
2. Im afraid my own views of the religion is correct. I love my idea of islam but because i dont yet have too much knowledge it might not be right. I dont know how much i should study of hadith and the work of scholars and so on to be sure that i understand everything before i commit.3. The biggest worry is that i some day will lose interest of islam and according to my husband its better to not become muslim at all than to become muslim and then fall out of it later. I am scared that it will happen and in that case it would be better if i didnt convert at all in the first place.

Because of these worries and others i feel like i should wait with conversion and study more before it but I dont know what is the limit and when can i clearly say im ready for becoming a muslim. How much to do and study before im ready?

If someone has advice id be happy because i feel lost and confused and i already feel like im something like "half muslim" because of things i already do and believe.

Sorry for unclear message, i just wanted to get everything out of my head.