I think that your resentment of your parents is contributing to your depression, feelings of loss, and inability to properly bond in your marriage.   Our faith teaches us that whatever good or harm will not touch us or pass over us without Allah�s decree; so fret not about the one you once loved.  I would suggest that you speak with your parents, which may help alleviate and release some bitterness you feel over your marriage.  Your parents have likely done their best for you, and as you say, your husband is a good man.  Tell them you love them for seeking what was best in their estimation; however you feel sad that you allowed them to marry you to someone not of your choice.  Yes, you must also take responsibility for going through with this marriage, because nobody can force you to marry against your will.  Your husband is a good man, so be patient with this marriage.  Do good deeds, give saddaqa and get close to your faith.  It is Allah who puts love into the hearts � pray that he chances your heart and places love for your husband in your heart.  I don�t suggest you speak with him, because it would take an extraordinary individual to accept that his wife didn�t want to marry him and loved another man.  Better to hash this with your parents � in a good way, and take personal responsibility for your own actions.  A healthy diet, exercise, studying your religion, wholesome community involvement, and personal pursuits will help with your depression - insha�Allah, but most importantly seek to come to terms with your anger.  Seems you have a lot to be thankful for, so give emphasis to what�s going well in your life.  Professional counseling may be a good option.